This is definitely a DIFFERENT kind of survey! It seems rather melancholy, though. I am having a great time with the LORD right now. Things are not easy, but I'm not "down" at all. God is awesome and I'm enjoying the process! That said, here's the survey:
1) Something you wish your mother or father had warned you about:
Neither of them had the wisdom to share, unfortunately
2) Something that's holding you back from achieving your dreams:
Nothing, I am on my way
3) Something you think you could win an award for:
Singing (I have)
4) Something you fear more than anything:
I don't know... I have a reverential fear of God. But the idea of going through a divorce makes my stomach turn.
5) Something you wish people would understand:
Jesus is who He says He is, no matter what "church people" do
6) Something that keeps you going everyday:
Jesus Christ
7) Something amazing that happened last summer:
WOW! Last summer was not a fun time. I did learn that I really enjoyed teaching.
8) Something you hate that people say:
"I'm sorry, but..." --> If you have the "but" in there, you aren't really apologizing. You are justifying what you did. It's a waste of breath. It is insincere.
9) Something you refuse to pay money for:
an imitation of something else
10) Something you wish you could have told that person that you never saw again:
The Gospel
11) Something that really stands out about last year:
2 things stand out:
how much God did in my heart and
Finding out how awesome she is!
12) Something you like that everyone else thinks is weird:
I really enjoy the little "imperfections" in the people that I love.
13) Something that makes you laugh every time it happens:
It doesn't take that much to make me laugh, seriously!
14) Something that makes the problems in your life not seem so bad:
Heaven's Mentality (not the CD, the mindset)
15) Something you listen to when you're in a really good mood:
I have a WIDE variety of music that falls into that category
16) Something you do when you're trying to calm down:
Worship the LORD
17) Something you do when you wake up at three AM:
I'm actually up at 3AM more often than not, but... I pray. I read the Bible. I check my email and MySpace.
18) Something you love doing on cold rainy days:
chilling with friends
19) Something amazing that's happened this year:
God has been working me on receiving His love, to another level.
20)Something that you always run into/trip over:
Nothing. I very rarely trip
21) Something that irritates you more than anything:
Religious people who stand on tradition more than what is in the Bible and give no regard to the voice of the LORD
22) Something you're addicted to/can't stop doing:
love
23) Something you had to give up but didn't want to:
her
24) Something that really stands out about you:
I asked someone about this, "that I am gentle natured" - I am told.
25) Something about you that's like everyone else:
I was miserable and wretched when compared with the standard of the 10 Commandments
26) Something that really stands out about that Certain Person:
She is tremendous... you could end up reading all night.
Here are a few things:
She's preternaturally pulchritudinous
She has a heart that amazes me every time I catch another glimpse into it
She was willing to nag me, about something I should be doing on, our first date (which was EXTREMELY attractive to me)
She is very valued by everyone that knows her (at least from what I have seen).
She's very honest and open (but with increasing depth) and quick to acknowledge weakness in herself
27) Something that you say a lot that others have picked up on:
there are a few:
"It's not that serious."
"jahnke"
Dag, there ARE more, I just can't think of them right now.
28) Something that makes you change the channel:
something I don't want to see
29) Something that really turns you on:
Godliness
30) Something that really turns you off:
being religious, or fake
31) Something you wish you could change about your life:
I believe everything worked out for the best (so far). I believe all that I dislike at the present moment will be worked out for my good! I believe this because I know God. I love Him and I have been called according to His purpose!
32) Something you think about every night before you go to sleep:
I go to bed praying, and specifically praying for her again and asking how I can more faithfully walk through tomorrow than I walked through today.
33) Something that you don't think will ever change about you:
My love and passion for the LORD and others, especially those that I believe He has called me to.
34) Something about you that you think will soon change:
A lot --> Almost every area of my life is set up to be exponentially better very soon.
35) Something that broke your heart as a child:
When I was 6 my mother told me that she hadn't wanted me since I was 5 and I didn't "really" meet my father until I was 16 and he didn't want me either. He just lied about it.
36) Something that really sparks your interest:
The Human Body
37) Something that truly disgusts you:
religious people
38) Something you wish that Certain Person would see in you:
A man that she could fall in love with... Her husband
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Chemistry and Physics
OK, so this quarter I am taking two accelerated Chemistry courses and a Physics course (I switched out of the accelerated version of Physics).
I don't know what to say. I feel like I should be studying more, but I also don't feel like I really need to. It is a weird feeling. The stuff we are going over in class makes sense to me, so I don't feel like I need to study as much as just reviewing the material (which doesn't take nearly as much time). However, I don't really trust how I am feeling about these classes right now. I had spent my entire college career dreading these courses... so much so that I may be a little paranoid about them. I understand, and I'm uneasy about that!
I think most of the problem is that I have no confidence in my natural ability in these general science courses. I am VERY confident about being able to roll through the actual doctorate courses, but these general science pre-requisites have me shaking a little bit. Having said that, here is the truth: God is in me, I am one spirit with the LORD (I Corinthians 6:17) and I have the mind of Christ (I Corinthians 2:16) and God is the "Wonderful Counselor" (Isaiah 9:6) and the Holy Spirit will teach me all things (John 14:26) and will teach me what to say when I am questioned (Luke 12:12). I have ALL confidence in God and His ability to enable me to understand and flow through school with good grades and understanding. I am so excited that God is going to allow me to be a doctor! I am looking at the goal (my doctorate in Chiropractic medicine) with anticipation, but I am not despising the process. I think school is going to be a lot of fun. A lot of work, but a lot of fun!
My goal is to get above a 3.0 this quarter and I am actually pretty confident about being able to do that!
AGAPE!!!
I don't know what to say. I feel like I should be studying more, but I also don't feel like I really need to. It is a weird feeling. The stuff we are going over in class makes sense to me, so I don't feel like I need to study as much as just reviewing the material (which doesn't take nearly as much time). However, I don't really trust how I am feeling about these classes right now. I had spent my entire college career dreading these courses... so much so that I may be a little paranoid about them. I understand, and I'm uneasy about that!
I think most of the problem is that I have no confidence in my natural ability in these general science courses. I am VERY confident about being able to roll through the actual doctorate courses, but these general science pre-requisites have me shaking a little bit. Having said that, here is the truth: God is in me, I am one spirit with the LORD (I Corinthians 6:17) and I have the mind of Christ (I Corinthians 2:16) and God is the "Wonderful Counselor" (Isaiah 9:6) and the Holy Spirit will teach me all things (John 14:26) and will teach me what to say when I am questioned (Luke 12:12). I have ALL confidence in God and His ability to enable me to understand and flow through school with good grades and understanding. I am so excited that God is going to allow me to be a doctor! I am looking at the goal (my doctorate in Chiropractic medicine) with anticipation, but I am not despising the process. I think school is going to be a lot of fun. A lot of work, but a lot of fun!
My goal is to get above a 3.0 this quarter and I am actually pretty confident about being able to do that!
AGAPE!!!
Thursday, December 21, 2006
BREAKTHROUGH
Hallelujah!!!!
God has truly lifted me out of my emotions and allowed me to see some of the purpose for this season in my life!
I say "some" because I am sure that there is more going on than I can see, but He has shown me some of it and IT IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!
The last three weeks (to the day, actually) have been EXTREMELY emotional, and VERY HARD!
HOWEVER, God has allowed me to process my emotions and, while I still feel the same way and I don't really see that changing, I am now THANKFUL for how I feel!!!! (what sicko is thankful for pain, huh? )
My emotions are indicators that are showing me how I need to pray and I have such clarity right now! HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!
God is so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God is SOOOOOO loving!!!!!!
I am SO thankful for what He is doing!!!!
HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!
God has truly lifted me out of my emotions and allowed me to see some of the purpose for this season in my life!
I say "some" because I am sure that there is more going on than I can see, but He has shown me some of it and IT IS AWESOME!!!!!!!!!
The last three weeks (to the day, actually) have been EXTREMELY emotional, and VERY HARD!
HOWEVER, God has allowed me to process my emotions and, while I still feel the same way and I don't really see that changing, I am now THANKFUL for how I feel!!!! (what sicko is thankful for pain, huh? )
My emotions are indicators that are showing me how I need to pray and I have such clarity right now! HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!
God is so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God is SOOOOOO loving!!!!!!
I am SO thankful for what He is doing!!!!
HALLELUJAH!!!!!!!!!!!
Life University jokes... actually any med school nerd would tell one of these
****DISCLAIMER: I DID NOT THINK ANY OF THESE UP*****
1) Are you constitutive? Because you've been turning me on all day!..
2) I'll be telomerase, so we can make it last forever.
3) A biologist, chemist, and Natural Physics scientist went to see what's under the sea. After only one hour, the chemist came back and the other two were lost. The chemist wrote in the lab experiment book, "The biologist and physicist were soluble in sea water."
4) If I were an enzyme i'd be DNA helicase so i could unzip your genes.
Yep! Here at Life U we're pretty much nerds. And we're OK with our nerdyness. But most of us will be able to retire at 50 :)
1) Are you constitutive? Because you've been turning me on all day!..
2) I'll be telomerase, so we can make it last forever.
3) A biologist, chemist, and Natural Physics scientist went to see what's under the sea. After only one hour, the chemist came back and the other two were lost. The chemist wrote in the lab experiment book, "The biologist and physicist were soluble in sea water."
4) If I were an enzyme i'd be DNA helicase so i could unzip your genes.
Yep! Here at Life U we're pretty much nerds. And we're OK with our nerdyness. But most of us will be able to retire at 50 :)
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Freedom
In "faithfulness in prayer" and in "true love" - if you truly love God above all - there is a point at which you must be willing to let go of everything else completely. I believe I am there. I am letting it be. I am letting it go. I am laying it down. I am free!
I will continue to be faithful in prayer
I will continue to hope
I will continue to dream
I will continue to feel the way I do (I can't imagine that changing)
HOWEVER...
I am laying down my hope
I am laying down my dreams
I am laying down my feelings
I will continue to be faithful in prayer
I will continue to hope
I will continue to dream
I will continue to feel the way I do (I can't imagine that changing)
HOWEVER...
I am laying down my hope
I am laying down my dreams
I am laying down my feelings
Monday, December 18, 2006
4 Christmas Topics, By Lee Strobel
Four Christmas Topics
By Lee Strobel
12.14.2006
Christmas celebrates the birth of God, not a man (5:57)
video
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When was Jesus born?
History doesn't pinpoint Jesus' birthday. Spring is most likely, because shepherds were watching their flocks at night and this is when ewes bore their young. In fact, around a.d. 200, theologians concluded Jesus was born on May 20. "Others," said journalist Terry Mattingly, "argued for dates in April and March. This wasn't a major issue, since early Christians emphasized the Epiphany on January 6, marking Christ's baptism."
Said Christian researcher Gretchen Passantino: "The first Christians pointed to the birthday celebrations of the gods as proof that the pagan gods were inferior to the eternal, infinite God. They understood that Christ's birth was the incarnation of the eternal Son of God. It was around a.d. 200 that celebration of Christ's birth was added to the crowded church calendar. Those churches who chose to celebrate it did so on various days and month."
In a.d. 385, Pope Julius I declared December 25 as the day for celebrating Christ's birth. "He chose that date," Passantino told me, "partly to challenge the pagan celebration of the Roman god Saturnalia, which was characterized by social disorder and immorality."
Was Jesus really born of a virgin? (6:45)
video
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Is the virgin birth credible?
Though 79 percent of Americans believe the virgin birth, it was a stumbling block for philosopher William Lane Craig when he was young. "I thought it was absurd," he said. "For the virgin birth to be true, a Y chromosome had to be created out of nothing in Mary's ovum, because Mary didn't possess the genetic material to produce a male child."
Still, he became a Christian. "You don't need to have all your questions answered to come to faith," he told me. "You just have to say, 'The weight of the evidence seems to show this is true, so even though I don't have answers to all my questions, I'm going to believe and hope for answers in the long run.'"
Craig came to believe there's plenty of independent evidence for God, including the origin and fine-tuning of the universe, as well as the existence of universal objective moral values. He summarizes the arguments in my book The Case for Faith.
Based on that, Craig later resolved the issue of the virgin birth. "If I really do believe in a God who created the universe," Craig said, smiling, "then for him to create a Y chromosome would be child's play!"
Did Christianity copy earlier myths?
Skeptics claim Christianity, including the virgin birth, is merely a repackaging of pagan "mystery religions." Not true, says apologist Alex McFarland. Contrary to mythology, "the New Testament deals with actual persons and historical events open to investigation," he said.
"None of the so-called 'savior gods' of the myths died for someone else," McFarland added. "The mystery religions portray gods who died repeatedly, depicting cycles of nature. Unlike the mythical heroes, Jesus died voluntarily, and his death was a triumph, not a defeat. Christ's death provided atonement for sin, a concept utterly foreign to the mystery religions."
Researcher Gretchen Passantino agrees that Christ's birth is radically different from these mythological tales. "The supposed parallels are greatly overblown ," she said. "For example, instead of a virgin willingly conceiving by the invisible power of God, the myths gave us lurid tales of lusty gods having forced sex with women," she said. "Instead of the Incarnation, the myths gave us half-human, half-divine superheroes subject to the same weaknesses, sins, and frustrations as we are."
Albert Schweitzer said those who claim Christianity was derived from these myths "manufacture out of the various fragments of information a kind of universal mystery religion which never existed." And C. S. Lewis confirmed Christianity originated "in a circle where no trace of the nature religion was present."
What was the Christmas Star?
Was it a comet? Asteroid? Conjunction of planets? All have been suggested to explain the Christmas star that led the wise men from the east to visit the Christ child. For astronomer Hugh Ross, one possibility is a "recurring nova."
"An easily visible nova (a star that suddenly increases in brightness and then within a few months or years grows dim) occurs about once every decade," he said. "Novae are sufficiently uncommon to catch the attention of observers as alert and well-trained as the magi must have been. However, many novae are also sufficiently unspectacular as to escape the attention of others."
Most novae explode once, but a few undergo multiple explosions separated by months or years. This, he said, could account for how Matthew says the star appeared, disappeared, and then reappeared and disappeared later.
By Lee Strobel
12.14.2006
Christmas celebrates the birth of God, not a man (5:57)
video
Watch Now
When was Jesus born?
History doesn't pinpoint Jesus' birthday. Spring is most likely, because shepherds were watching their flocks at night and this is when ewes bore their young. In fact, around a.d. 200, theologians concluded Jesus was born on May 20. "Others," said journalist Terry Mattingly, "argued for dates in April and March. This wasn't a major issue, since early Christians emphasized the Epiphany on January 6, marking Christ's baptism."
Said Christian researcher Gretchen Passantino: "The first Christians pointed to the birthday celebrations of the gods as proof that the pagan gods were inferior to the eternal, infinite God. They understood that Christ's birth was the incarnation of the eternal Son of God. It was around a.d. 200 that celebration of Christ's birth was added to the crowded church calendar. Those churches who chose to celebrate it did so on various days and month."
In a.d. 385, Pope Julius I declared December 25 as the day for celebrating Christ's birth. "He chose that date," Passantino told me, "partly to challenge the pagan celebration of the Roman god Saturnalia, which was characterized by social disorder and immorality."
Was Jesus really born of a virgin? (6:45)
video
Watch Now
Is the virgin birth credible?
Though 79 percent of Americans believe the virgin birth, it was a stumbling block for philosopher William Lane Craig when he was young. "I thought it was absurd," he said. "For the virgin birth to be true, a Y chromosome had to be created out of nothing in Mary's ovum, because Mary didn't possess the genetic material to produce a male child."
Still, he became a Christian. "You don't need to have all your questions answered to come to faith," he told me. "You just have to say, 'The weight of the evidence seems to show this is true, so even though I don't have answers to all my questions, I'm going to believe and hope for answers in the long run.'"
Craig came to believe there's plenty of independent evidence for God, including the origin and fine-tuning of the universe, as well as the existence of universal objective moral values. He summarizes the arguments in my book The Case for Faith.
Based on that, Craig later resolved the issue of the virgin birth. "If I really do believe in a God who created the universe," Craig said, smiling, "then for him to create a Y chromosome would be child's play!"
Did Christianity copy earlier myths?
Skeptics claim Christianity, including the virgin birth, is merely a repackaging of pagan "mystery religions." Not true, says apologist Alex McFarland. Contrary to mythology, "the New Testament deals with actual persons and historical events open to investigation," he said.
"None of the so-called 'savior gods' of the myths died for someone else," McFarland added. "The mystery religions portray gods who died repeatedly, depicting cycles of nature. Unlike the mythical heroes, Jesus died voluntarily, and his death was a triumph, not a defeat. Christ's death provided atonement for sin, a concept utterly foreign to the mystery religions."
Researcher Gretchen Passantino agrees that Christ's birth is radically different from these mythological tales. "The supposed parallels are greatly overblown ," she said. "For example, instead of a virgin willingly conceiving by the invisible power of God, the myths gave us lurid tales of lusty gods having forced sex with women," she said. "Instead of the Incarnation, the myths gave us half-human, half-divine superheroes subject to the same weaknesses, sins, and frustrations as we are."
Albert Schweitzer said those who claim Christianity was derived from these myths "manufacture out of the various fragments of information a kind of universal mystery religion which never existed." And C. S. Lewis confirmed Christianity originated "in a circle where no trace of the nature religion was present."
What was the Christmas Star?
Was it a comet? Asteroid? Conjunction of planets? All have been suggested to explain the Christmas star that led the wise men from the east to visit the Christ child. For astronomer Hugh Ross, one possibility is a "recurring nova."
"An easily visible nova (a star that suddenly increases in brightness and then within a few months or years grows dim) occurs about once every decade," he said. "Novae are sufficiently uncommon to catch the attention of observers as alert and well-trained as the magi must have been. However, many novae are also sufficiently unspectacular as to escape the attention of others."
Most novae explode once, but a few undergo multiple explosions separated by months or years. This, he said, could account for how Matthew says the star appeared, disappeared, and then reappeared and disappeared later.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
The IBM or Me?
I can't believe I'm quoting Vanilla Ice!
"Drop that zero and get with the hero!" - Vanilla Ice in some horribly bad movie he was in, I remember it from watching the trailer back then
I was again watching my favorite movie and I realized something. In a lot of love stories (Romantic Comedies), there are two men that the woman must choose between. One is usually great. He has everything that she's been looking for, as far as qualities go, but there is no chemistry, no excitement, no spark. The other is not what she thought she wanted at all, but there is a spark that she cannot deny. As an audience, I think we always tend to get behind the guy where there is a spark, and we root for her to choose him!
Why is that? Are we being conditioned through the movies we watch to believe that there can only be a spark with men who do not have the qualities we seek? Are we being conditioned to believe that the "good men" are boring? What exactly does this say about us as a culture and is it possible that the USA Divorce Rate is connected to this?
Another question I have is, how should a guy react when he doesn't really know which side he is on in a woman's eyes?
I have been watching a lot of these love stories in the last two weeks and I have naturally been seeing myself on the side of the man that the woman decides to come back to, but what if the woman views you on the other side? Watching these movies for her, would have a dramatically different effect. I don't know, really. I know movies are just movies, but I also know that emotional stories that are written well can have a profound impact on our soul.
I know I have the qualities that will make for a good husband and father. What I don't know is if I am also on the side where sparks fly. When I am with her and I look into her gorgeous brown eyes, my heart tells me "yes, there is a spark here." It seems like when we are together, all the world is right, but when we aren't there is something wrong that we just can't shake. I don't understand why that is. I guess we will see.
Who am I more like?
Lon or Noah?
Mark (the IBM) or Brian?
The great thing is that I don't need to know the answer yet. Love is patient and I will wait until I feel like God is telling me to move on. I am "built" for love. Love does not shrink back from difficulty, tough situations or pain. I know that there was a time before me, I know that that time produced pain. That pain has to be dealt with. Emotions need to be healed. Shoot! I have things that God is working on me about. This past week has been really hard! Not just because I miss communicating with this tremendous woman of God (and, honestly, the sound of her voice) but because God has been showing me some things in my prayer time that were pretty serious!
More on that in a different blog
"Drop that zero and get with the hero!" - Vanilla Ice in some horribly bad movie he was in, I remember it from watching the trailer back then
I was again watching my favorite movie and I realized something. In a lot of love stories (Romantic Comedies), there are two men that the woman must choose between. One is usually great. He has everything that she's been looking for, as far as qualities go, but there is no chemistry, no excitement, no spark. The other is not what she thought she wanted at all, but there is a spark that she cannot deny. As an audience, I think we always tend to get behind the guy where there is a spark, and we root for her to choose him!
Why is that? Are we being conditioned through the movies we watch to believe that there can only be a spark with men who do not have the qualities we seek? Are we being conditioned to believe that the "good men" are boring? What exactly does this say about us as a culture and is it possible that the USA Divorce Rate is connected to this?
Another question I have is, how should a guy react when he doesn't really know which side he is on in a woman's eyes?
I have been watching a lot of these love stories in the last two weeks and I have naturally been seeing myself on the side of the man that the woman decides to come back to, but what if the woman views you on the other side? Watching these movies for her, would have a dramatically different effect. I don't know, really. I know movies are just movies, but I also know that emotional stories that are written well can have a profound impact on our soul.
I know I have the qualities that will make for a good husband and father. What I don't know is if I am also on the side where sparks fly. When I am with her and I look into her gorgeous brown eyes, my heart tells me "yes, there is a spark here." It seems like when we are together, all the world is right, but when we aren't there is something wrong that we just can't shake. I don't understand why that is. I guess we will see.
Who am I more like?
Lon or Noah?
Mark (the IBM) or Brian?
The great thing is that I don't need to know the answer yet. Love is patient and I will wait until I feel like God is telling me to move on. I am "built" for love. Love does not shrink back from difficulty, tough situations or pain. I know that there was a time before me, I know that that time produced pain. That pain has to be dealt with. Emotions need to be healed. Shoot! I have things that God is working on me about. This past week has been really hard! Not just because I miss communicating with this tremendous woman of God (and, honestly, the sound of her voice) but because God has been showing me some things in my prayer time that were pretty serious!
More on that in a different blog
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