Decisions, decisions

OK, here is what I'm thinking. There is more to this, just ask if you want to know.

Romans 12:5 intimates that we, as born-again believers in Jesus Christ, belong to one another. There are people who are not very happy, to say the least, at my impending move to Atlanta. I have prayed a lot about this:

*** I know that God has told me to go to Chiropractic school. He has not, however, told me to go now.

*** I know that if I leave now, I will graduate sooner. However, if I leave now, it will hurt the feelings of people that I love.

*** I know that everything at the Chiropractic school is taken care of already (Admissions, Financial Aid, and Housing), but none of that seems too hard to push back a quarter or two.

*** I know I am moving out of the place where I live now at the end of June whether I go or not. But if I go, I wont have to look for another place in Richmond.

*** I know that every reason that I would go now is either selfish or being moved by money:

As a Chiropractor, I know Ill be able to support my wife and whatever children the LORD gives us. I am not excited about having it be a long time before I can do that.

My finances are beyond tight right now and moving to ATL will alleviate some of that.

It is definitely the easier route to take, there are fewer uncertainties inherent in moving to ATL now

Ya'll know, I am not one who shies away from impending hardship if I believed that God was leading me through it. I am not going to do something just because it would be "easier." Furthermore, I dont want to be moved by money. I cannot serve both God and money and, hopefully, its obvious to everyone who knows me that my choice will always be to serve God.

Like I said, I believe (and it was confirmed several times) that God wants me to go to Chiropractic School. I do not believe that He wants me to go now. It was always simply my preference to go now. Honestly, this was because I was in a hurry to be able to make enough to support a family. In my mind, it has been hard to see myself as husband material because I am so poor. God help me!!! That statement sounds so shallow to me!

I feel kinda like Paul when he wrote that it would be better for the Philippians that he loved if he stuck around longer. (Philippians 1:23-24 - Obviously, he was talking about staying alive, but I believe the principle is the same. He desired to depart, but he knew that his preference was self-motivated and because of his love, he wanted to stick around longer does that make sense?). Selfishly, I would like to begin my schooling and get my pre-requisites finished. However, I love these people more than I love myself and that is what love is (I John 4:10). Love is self-sacrificing. And the attitude of Jesus that we are encouraged to emulate in Philippians 2 (verses 1-16 but especially 3-4) further demonstrates this. As does I Corinthians 13. The point is clear. If I loved only myself, I would be going.

That is not the case.

I need to stay.

Please pray for me. I need to find a new place and I need to find gainful employment